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[29 Nov 2004|09:31pm] |
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Wow its been a while. Lots new i guess u can say, new job, school, its like almost december and december sucks. Wow i havent updated since like close to summer. Well same ol' shit with me. Boring life, could be better but I can't complain all that much. Anyway, check out my myspace link http://profiles.myspace.com/users/8348481
Maybe ill update here when somethin exciting actually happens
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[31 Aug 2004|04:31am] |
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Me thinks me falling for her :D
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| Secure the vessel! |
[22 Aug 2004|04:00am] |
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Today was fun, suprisingly at work. Intresting but still fun. Full ship dinner cruises and full ship moonlights aren't always a thrill so me and the homies try to make the best of what we can get done. So anyways, Dinners are easy its those god-damned-pest-ridden-fucking-moonlights that are a trip. I talked to Joe for the most part, hes a funny guy, and Easy-E=eric, steve O and mark was driving for the nite. Mark and Ed are my favorite captains. But anyway, I half expected a tropical storm but the rain stopped nicely when i got there. Easy peezy, we bullshitted most the 2 cruises just cause were all a buncha bullshitters. I realized tonite, that I really do enjoy it working there. And i will miss it. Even with all the bullshit, some of the Ops are awesome people and really make the cruise fun, along with a few others in the resturant.
I was called a sexy white boy today, which did boost my self esteem cause its been less then average lately. Cute black girls sure know how to cheer me up. But also, I had some girl hittin on me today, not the black girl that was calling me a sexy white boy, this chick was white and new to the spirit. She is very pretty, preformer, i forget her name..she learned mine somehow,but shes fuckin engaged. Whats with these engaged girls hittin on me? Its like I'm a symbol of affair. I don't really care if she wants to hit on me fine, but i've sure learned my lesson from getting involved with married/engaged girls. And believe me, its a no win. Why couldn't I meet..a single girl? whos not insane, whos not pregnant, or severe mood swings. I'm only bitching about it cause this really has become all I meet. I don't even need a girlfriend, I just can't understand what the hell I only meet these kinds of women? It's ironic, doncha think?
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[20 Aug 2004|02:11am] |
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I need to get laid, any takers?
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[16 Jul 2004|05:59am] |
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So my dad is in the hospital today, clogged artery. Not a good thing but not life threatening.
He needs to eat better, like how I eat!
But ya he really gave me a scare, my dads very important in my life. He is the only person I know that I can tell anything. ANYTHING.
Pops get well, and hurry with it cause Spiderman 2 is still waiting for us!
On a second note,
Someone tried to contact me, I'm not sure why or for what purpose and I don't know if I should reply back again.
I'll just say this, things will never change and things will never progress as long as your with him and shut me out...It would never happen. So in all good intentions if you don't make up ur mind, and if you don't plan on leaving him please don't try me. Its been over a year now. We're not getting any younger, and sooner or later we'll just loose all touch.
Its the harsh cold truth I know, and I'm sorry. But its the same thing I've been saying since the beginning.
Oh yah, I been lookin into the Coast Gaurd. Seems intresting, and right down my alley cause I wanna learn more about boats and the sea. But its a big choice, and thats why Im still pondering...cause if I start that then I'll be long gone outta here, away from home and everyone i know for years. I dunno, I'll think about it.
Well, fun day. Lets hope tomorrow is better!
-mike
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[14 Jul 2004|03:43am] |
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A wise man once told me this once, and I'll never rely on any other comparisons:
"All women are crazy, its just finding the level of craziness that your willing to endure."
Amen brother, Amen
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| Lookin in the Delaware River... |
[05 Jun 2004|05:44am] |
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For thousands of years, human beings had screwed up and trashed and crapped on this planet, and now history expected me to clean up after everyone. I have to wash out and flatten my soup cans. And account for every drop of used motor oil. And I have to foot the bill for nuclear waste and buried gasoline tanks and landfilled toxic sludge dumped a generation before I was born.
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[04 Jun 2004|03:25am] |
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Well another week has almost flew by, spendin time at work seems to be taking alot of my time. But for some reason I enjoy the place, being on the water, has a sureal settlement about it. I feel for, at once, peaceful and happy. And I think I owe much of it to this new job...I really want to find a job workin either near or on the waters. Ocean, river, or wherevever. I just want to buy my own boat, and live on it. And hopes that one day I can just explore the world on it.
Kinda feel mellow tonite, but this girl I been talkin to, hadnt called me, I think I know why.shes always busy and I dont blame her for that, I really can't blame her for that. Girl works like crazy and goes to school full time and tries to make it home whenever she can. Well I'll see whats up with it later, I just met her so I can't say I'm worried about it honestly.
Well tomorrow night will be long one, we got some high school grads comin to the boat and pulling an all nighter. I best come prepared its gonna be long but hopefully fun, plus, all nighter? 18 year olds? NICE. Theres bound to be some tail on this ship!
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| Behold a lady |
[30 May 2004|07:10pm] |
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Ya, I gotta make up my mind. Part of me thinks maybe its too soon, another part of me wonders why all the attention. All I know is what I want, and if I can't have that...well, then everything else will be lost. cause its all I want, We'll see tomorrow I suppose..,
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| Apology |
[26 May 2004|12:58am] |
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I just want you to know that...
I really am sorry...
it was not my intention...
to make you feel this way...
and I don't know why things changed...
they just did...
stress had just taken over me...
and all feelings just turned blank...
for that shit I did...
I feel like such slime...
I only hope one day...
you might understand me...
I really did like you...
and to turn around and see you like this...
makes me ashamed...
to have once been called, yours...
I hope someday...
we can talk in a good manner...
and be happy for one another...
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[24 May 2004|03:40am] |
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How quick a person is to judge me, amazes me. Act like they know me, for so long. I don't open up to just anybody, only very few people know me in and out. But to say that i used you? Well fuck, thats just plain immature. And somehow this is my fault? How is this my fault? What did I do other than be good to you? What the fuck makes me a bad person? When you get mad at me when I have important shit to do? And only do all the shit you want me to do? NO, thats not my idea of a good time. Sit at home waiting for me to get back. Everything you commited to me was on your own account, I never forced you to do anything you never wanted. And now you say, never again? Well all I got to say is your right, you just made up your own damn mind. Its over cause you say it is and I have no problem with what you want now. You have alot of growing up to do, I hope you start soon.
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| Capn Crunch |
[16 May 2004|03:39am] |
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Yah I just got off work. First day, it was fun...there wasnt much to it cept before the cruise and after. My legs are sore, but Im cool. The basis of my job is pretty much the name "Deck Hand" I'm like a peon that helps mast the boat, set dock, another set of eyes for the Captain. Its better than Home Depot, man that shit was drivin me nuts. During cruises I jsut watch the passangers, make sure theyre following safety rules, keeping an eye out. But before and after the passangers we get the dirty work :( Cleaning heads, scrubin the decks, trash, all that good stuff. But ya, I dont mind labor. Plus I love bein on boats so it suits me.
Ok topic 2, I met someone. Shes without a doubt incredible. Shes hot, shes sweet, and I feel like she has more care for me than anyone I've ever been with. I feel like there is nothin she wouldn't give just to be with me. And its great because I would do anything in my power to give her the same. Ive only known her for a short time but it feels SO natural, which is weird I know, but I do. Needless to say, I have no intention of breaking her heart because she's already given me half of it. And I just like her so much.
Ok, Im just about finished my LATE dinner, stopped at Wawa on the way home. I was huuuuungry!
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| Wooba |
[15 May 2004|03:38pm] |
Ok so its been while, some new stuff some old. I work in Philly now, on the Spirit I start in like a few minutes so Ill be breif as breif can be. Anywho, I met someone, and its really crazy because i like her alot. And its all so natural, we're exclusively dating her names Ester, shes latino :DDDD and japanese :DDDDD. Very beautiful, but anyway Ill write more on it when Im off work. For now I gotta head on over to philly to start work. Wish me luck~~
-Wolfy
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[04 Apr 2004|04:42am] |
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Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of our greatest strength, and our greatest weakness.
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[28 Mar 2004|12:31am] |
No more lies...
Good luck in your new world baby.
I can't go on with it anymore, its too hard.
I hope you don't wake up and realize you've made a mistake.
Because its too late, I'm gone now. Sorry, I gave you a chance.
But you blew it, so I'll take your silence and leave.
And please, don't tell me you've been trying to get a hold of me.
Because I know you now, lies and all.
I know everything now, and I'm sorry. It must of been lust
Because you never showed me love, you never proved you would.
I know it was alot to ask for you to leave the life you knew.
Into a whole new one.
But you had no hope, and never took the steps.
The steps I was willing to walk with you.
But now, you can't and I wont ever reply back.
For your sake and mine.
You never showed me love I hope I deserved.
You never proved to me, the love you said was with you.
This is goodbye, so be good.
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[06 Mar 2004|12:46pm] |
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Im Rick James, bitch!
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[03 Mar 2004|02:50am] |
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"Its only after we loose everything, that were free to do anything.
I like the saying, but I think it needs a little less definition to it.
More along the lines of, its only after you loose everything, that you have nothing.
Nothing is right...
nothing is what I've got...
Could I change that?
Sure if I wanted to, but I'm not going to.
Obtaining something is borrowing something, which in time you will loose. It doesn't matter how long you have it cause you'll never keep it forever. It will eventually, loose its value, get lost, or just leave you for their own sake.
If you hold things close then you might keep it a little longer than you might of hoped, but not long enough.
Its all a game which were going to play...like it or not it happens to all of us..even the best of us.
I'm no different cause I try like hell to avoid those things.
I'm just tired of always getting the pain.
A man becomes what hes treated in life
It ain't worth it...not even close.
Its all bullshit
Fuck the world... people suck...believe it.
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[23 Feb 2004|02:48am] |
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life. in general. sucks
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[18 Feb 2004|12:52am] |
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